Wednesday, June 2, 2010 • 4:38 AM
FML !
累了 照惯例努力清醒著 也照惯例想妳了
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在梦中不听话的 就停止了
听著 呼吸像浪潮拍动著 越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什麽 如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下妳错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了妳
想到我让深爱的妳 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终於没那麽幸运
没机会白著头髮 蹒跚牵著妳 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光 总有一天 妳会伤心痊癒
若有人可以 让他陪妳 我不怪妳
快乐 什麽时候会结束呢 哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳紧紧抱著 可知妳是我生命中的 最捨不得
如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下妳错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了妳
想到我让深爱的妳 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终於没那麽幸运
没机会白著头髮 蹒跚牵著妳 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光 总有一天 妳会伤心痊癒
若有人可以 让他陪妳 我不怪妳
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气 霸占妳心里 每一吋缝隙
连累依然爱我的妳 痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请妳尽力 把我忘记
This is the lyrics that speaks my heart.
The red ones importantly.
I hate my mother.
I hate my everything.
I hate my home.
I hate my life.
Everything sucks.
What I do has all been unappreciated.
You allow him to go out but now me.
You claim that he is out of your control.
I CAN be out of your control also okay.
I really want to SCREAM IN YOUR FACE.
But because i respect you, i wont.
I respect you, you dont respect me.
And you taught me that if somebody doesnt respect you, you dont have to respect that person.
And what are you doing right now ?
I feel like running away from home.
But i know i'll have nowhere to go to.
I feel like suiciding but i know thats not an option.
Life sucks.
Why must it be this way?
Complaincomplaincomplain.
You have your temper, i have mine.
I'm your daughter, not your dog.
I respect you because i have to.
You have to respect me also, no matter what.
Human have human rights.
Wait till i'm 16, we'll see about it.
Not its the 21st Century, dont tell me about last time,
how well you did in your studies.
Dont tell me ANYTHING about last time and then comparing it to me now.
Its the 21st century already.
The new ERA.
Everbody is different now.
Tell me about last time ? Come la !
Last time dun have handphone, why now you using ?
Last time if studies good why never go UNI ?
Last time no TV why watch TV ?
TELL ME ABOUT LAST TIME AGAIN AND I WILL DEFINATELY SHOOT YOU BACK.
Say Mrlee say yourself,
you said you understand cos i have a brother.
You understand?
HELL NO !
From now on i wont be honest to you, you dont treasure when i'm telling the truth.
Next time i'll lie to you and go to somewhere farfar away.
When i'm older and have money,
I will move out.
I will travel.
I dont want to come back.
I WONT !
